The Days Blur Togeather

This is a collection of my thoughts for the past month... I find it hard to follow in sections but interesting none the less..

The Days Blur Together

This story begins neither here nor there. Like existence the story itself lies in its most purest form from conception. Unaltered by idle hands who corrupt authors words to reflect important facts in personal history. For history itself marches onward, reflected by the masses to display a story consumed with a singular entity to sway common perception. But a strong perception viewing stories of old and wise enough to see through the corruption can rewrite history as it should be. But in order to rewrite this perfect history, we must be willing to let go.

Not a time or place on this world can accurately identify all the passages, weed out common corruption, or validate the richness of a cause for history's written past. If history can be toyed with, how can anyone know for certain that the facts are indeed true? How many demented minds corrupted these books? Altered history? For a meaningless cause?

Money......
 alas causes eventually fade away... much like the first cause, no one will remember how, or why the universe was formed. Only speculation will remain. Much like we speculate if life once existed on mars, the same causes that might have brought life previously, will also spawn balancing causes. Our world will eventually fade into the annals of lost causes, decades, centuries, eons will once again go marked then lost... marked then lost... marked then lost... a vicious cycle...

These lost passages devour our minds, hidden beneath the surface of an iceberg. For no on knows everything, and not everything is true. What exactly a tale tells is different perspectives, and our overall goal is to find and write our perspective... Not be force fed it... These passages, however mis-guided they leave us, are needed in order to learn a most valuable lesson in life... A lesson that many individuals fail to figure out.. To always follow your dreams..

These giblets of our lives, these dreams display the world inside the world inside a world. A portal if you will, and traveling between these worlds, sections of your brain might hold one the most valuable keys to life.

But how can we follow these sections in our brain, these unused atoms that spark meaningful/meaningless ideas? It's quite simple if you could remember them. Many people think a dream is initially meaningful. Yet the average person might recall only one dream out of 8. The one dream exists for a split second unless it is somehow remembered. Written down!!

From here a funny thing occurs. Much like a imploding star these dreams are now real and the more your around people who dream the more your life will change. But the more you dream, the more lives you'll change. Atoms implode forcing ideas out into the world. Ideas that would have never been if we were not able to foresee another world.

No one knows where these dreams take us. but in life we follow them to whatever end.

Once you hit the end, down do you know its over? Does a giant wall magically appear? That says the end? It may sound preposterous but how do we know when we sleep that we are still the same person on the other side? Or lost a part of us along the way?

Are all the atoms you fell asleep with still there? Of course not, but somehow the atoms change slowly modify are brainwave functions to modify our thought process as we age. It helps us cope with our own mortality, and also displays how our atoms of other individuals come together To form coherent ideas (not always true) that are widely agreed upon.

Rapid changes in though or a renascence period occurs when individuals dream and correct the older ways. However once we get engrained in society's wrong doing; the only thing left is chaos. Governments fail because we became so dependent on a figment of our imagination.

But so in the end what is life? But just a binding of thoughts blurred together in an ever changing world, forced together roughly by individuals in power to sway common perception. To gain more power to control their power and ensure they stay in power. These thoughts, these dreams, often crush other dreams.. dreams of individuals with no power...

Understanding

Something clicked in me recently, I'm not exactly sure what it was or where it came from but I started to see things in a different light. I was simply just going on a walk down the street when the world changed... It wasn't that I planned on finding this different meaning in life, it just happened... It was like a chalkboard of meaningful phrases bombarding my head, squeezing out the lasting impressions of childhood. I can now finally admit I am no longer a child...

The beginning of this transformation took hold when I went to the vine yard hopping in New York. I though I knew a lot about beer, but all I know are hops. Completely being arrogant to the rest of the spectrum of beer that includes ingredients such as: malt, barley, sugars, spices, and etc. To be honest yes you need to balance everything out in life, and I’ve realized I can balance and understand 1 or 2 aspects of my life. However completely ignoring or rather not knowing of any other balance that exists. I thought about this lesson

How many things are you arrogant toward for just not taking enough time to understand or acquire? It sounds funny but the game in The Sims is true.
And life itself isn't all about the moments we live...
It’s about the moments we dream...
For in the end we will never wake up...
But our dreams shall live forever...
And it’s our goal to imprint our impressions, our dreams upon society...

Controlled Education

The halls of our past are painted over and over again saluting today’s heroes while the fading voices of our forefathers echo in the paints hidden meaning. A trusty scholar can pick out the certain discolorations in the walls and tell the stories that were once told there. However some of the walls are painted over completely by the king whose goal in life is to unite his people into one coherent cause, trying to iron out individuality so people work better in society.

The king decided that the only way to unite his people was to eliminate all study of the past. Thus creating a series of tests that children must pass before moving to the next stage of their life. These tests focused his people more on a standardized general test and gradually regional knowledge was lost. The king altered the test again, eliminating the dividing factors of history. This spawned the fall of countries as a singular government was erected.

Now the world is united with all his subjects working toward one singular cause. And the problems of our past faded into the halls. For future scholars now look at the halls in confusion; they're simply not able to grasp the hidden clues that lie beneath. 

Only the brightest and oldest scholars who remember the old days stare in horror as they begin to understand how he became king...

War

Wars are fought between two nations....
                      Oh,
       It's funny how nations seem to get hurt....
                           
                 People killing people is all that I see...
The nation still stands just to wage war again...

And the leaders walked outside with grins on their faces...

                 too tired of talking they bring out their guns...

and with words of hope they rally for a cause...

freedom,
          democracy....

Infidels are invading our land...

Since when did cause
              become the reason for war?

     Leaders fight
for an a number of causes,
                but greed is never a true power,

    Oil,
Is another cause,
      so I can kill my own brother...

   Money,
         another cause,
to put a bullet
        in cupids heart...

      wars,
are another way,

              for leaders to show irresponsibility...

Addiction

I want to yell at the individual who created massive multiplayer online games such as wow, eve, ever quest, and ww2 online. What you've created is what I will call "digital crack" that forces an individual to play your game as long as he can to no end. Basically putting more emphasis on an individual’s digital life then their real life. I really would like the past 2 week of my life back from playing your pathetic game, because all I wanted to do was come home and level my character up. But I wised up, I looked around my apartment and realized shit needs to be done, and my addiction toward your game needs to go.. YOU FAILED...

But then it dawned on me, everyone has their addiction...
Its not just your game, its TV, its the Sunday drive to church, the cold air from our air conditioning units, the food, the drinks, and most importantly money.

Tell me something, are we really created equal if were a society addicted to money? How is a low income family compare to the bill gates family? I thought somewhere in American society I was taught that all men are created equal... Which is now, everyone is created equal (because women figured out how to stand up for themselves (congratulations)).

Well here's a thought, lets kick this stupid money addiction, and the first place it needs to go is in the medical world. You can not be denied full medical treatment based on the color of your skin, your gender, your age, lets just add the size of your wallet to that.

How could this happen? Firstly legalize drugs, the taxes we could make off of them would pump a hell of a lot of money into the American economy that could be used to give citizens free health care. Oh and you don't have to show commercials on TV that buying drugs promotes terrorism, so terrorists won't be able to make money off of drugs (whoa were killing two birds with one stone). The whole legalization process is a complex task that proper education and laws need to be thought out.

And secondly, if people want to live unhealthy, great that's their choice in life. But the government should really push for healthy living styles. Most Americans can go to McDonalds and get a double cheeseburger for a buck... You honestly don't have the food you need to live long healthy lives, so lets fucking tax it. If you want to eat a cheeseburger lets say 3 cents will go toward the health system because you’re more likely to need health care then a person who eats a salad. This is also how the legalizing of drugs makes a lot of money for the health system. If drugs are bad for you like the government says then they'd have no problem heavily taxing individuals who buy a bag of pot, hit of acid, or an eight ball because these individuals are at a higher risk then individuals that do not use the product. What I’m saying is we already have the system in place (cigarettes) just expand it so we can live a healthy living style cheaper then living an unhealthy living style.

It is viable to have free medical care in this country. And guess what, free medical care means that companies don't have to pay 200 dollars a month for health care so employees get a 200 dollar raise a month in jobs where healthcare was a benefit. Oh one more thing before I stop the whole medical spiel, companies should not be allowed to put a patent on a drug that is life saving. We have one of the greatest epidemics occurring in Africa and the people of Africa have to pay a premium price to receive drugs that could otherwise be made cheaply. I think it’s a good idea to allow companies to help people, I think helping people is a good idea!
I know I didn't solve the money problem, maybe one day I’ll figure out how to fix it, but for now it’s a start.

Update

If we have not crossed paths in a while, he's the basic life changes I have made since leaving college.
I’m officially working for a company called Prolog in Palmerton, Pennsylvania (its about 40 minutes above Allentown/Bethlehem), and this past week was wasted looking for apartments down in that area... 

I wasn't surprised with the vast majority of places I visited, these land lords  think they have "diamonds in the ruff".  For 500 dollars a month you would think they could at least clean the carpets to make it look like its not some shady crack den.   

Luckily, through my travels I was able to find a place for 530 with everything included except cable and internet only a block away where I worked...   Its not the biggest place but not having to be concerned with the gas prices and walking to work will save a nice hunk of change weekly.   It also had a super market right next door, along with a subway, west coast video, local watering hole, and CVS pharmacy
I also found out that I'll be getting free internet and cable TV from my employer; so I’ll be saving even more once I am hired full time with Prolog....

So the job front is going great, the landlord also seemed cool, and insisted I get a two legged pet or female friend now that I'm new to the area. Its really a chore starting from scratch on the social front but my co workers are nice and I'm slowly building relationship at the office.  

Finally, once I get accustomed I will see if I can post some pictures of the area in the future so everyone can see how similar this town looks to a coal region town... 

That's it for now.