Expression

Its 2:00 am, and my mind is restless racing though the future.  To ease its worried state I pop in a CD my friend Adam gave to me during our last encounter. And Frankly I'm amazing how music effects and connects us to different times and places in life.  And these new songs will continue to define our lives just like the smell you would get from your mothers lasagna when you first open the door.

I've  realize that there is a song for every situation that exists in the world and these songs express emotions go by unnoticed until they are heard.  To sing and echo as long as humanity exists is mind bending just thinking about  Elliott Smith , Jimi Hendrix, Kurt Cobain, Lynyrd Skynyrd, and John Lennon as individuals who's ability never peaked.  True artists of expression.

I've been thinking about how to express myself, but in the whole process I jumble up word choices and spend more time looking dictionary.. Eventually I can vastly improve my vocabulary but I can already foresee the limiting potential language gives....

For example:

Imagine if Abraham Lincoln sang the Gettysburg address; how spectacular the song would be. Was he content with mere words?  Or was depressed to the limiting factor that a voice was; unable to hit the highs and lows and therefore forced to deliver a mono tonal speech.

It's the building of art. A masterpiece left unfinished.... But Everything is left unfinished....To capture emotion in mere words, that's the real task...

To conclude tonight i wrote a poem:

My world began eons ago...
and will end abruptly
                                  
Everything you ever wanted
Ceases to exist
When you pass into the vale

Reducing Valve

The mind is a complex entity that is related to the brain via functionalism. Functionalism means if the brain is damaged in anyway so is the mind. Different parts of the brain correspond to different areas of how the mind reacts; so damaging a part of your brain could mean your eyesight, another part your short-term memory, another part your sense of smell.

For everything we experience in this world relies on our five senses that include sight, sound, smell, taste, and touch. These senses create the "grand reducing valve" that is our only sources of input in this world. Creatures that exist in different senses are entirely unknown to us because we have no way of understanding or studying their existence unless they could interact with the senses we can visually comprehend.

I will put god in the senses that we are unable to study because of the reducing valve. God does not exist within our senses and the belief in such an entity proves scientifically impossible. Therefore anything that exists outside our senses is scientifically impossible and the only downside to science.

Think I’m wrong? Prove it.

To Take Lead

A supreme political leader is able to adequately identify the needs of a country, move the countries resources to fill in the needs, and above all stay fair and balanced. A political groups agenda must fall by the way side for a leader to do an adequate job running a country in which multiple groups are in power. This leader must also be in the constant state of compromise; and if not up to the task, will be categorized with a singular idea that  ensures bias toward the whole.

A leader must be a grand listener, with the ability to consult reliable resources outside of his/her knowledge. Action has to be decisive and the words used by the leader must not be rushed. Speaking is the first draft of writing, so leaders must carefully choose the words to be expressed to his or her republic.

Productive

It dawned on me that my college years are numbered and it’s time to start growing up. 

While I enjoyed going to the bars and having a good time; I believe it will also be a present to not have a constant hole burning in my wallet. Besides it’s cheaper to do something more productive with your life if you learn from it, so i decided to get a drum book and a pair of new sticks.

It feels better when you have rhythm in your step, compared to the spins and light-headed feeling of drinking.  Don't get me wrong, I will still have a few drinks from time to time, but I had enough of it as a daily occurrence. Therefore in the spirit of lent, I'm going to give up this life style. Not that I'm a spiritual person, but i do believe the habit forming process of lent and produce life changing events if you can stick with it. 

Other thoughts on productivity....

My dad always said:

             "There's a time for work, and a time for play."  - Papa Bear-
 

A productive person does what?

• Only Works
• Only Plays
• Both

My roommate Dan argues that a productive person never works because they are wasting time working. Playing should be your "work" and individuals who do not realize that miss the big picture.

I counter Dan by saying, some individuals who only play miss out on the joys of work. To complete a job that you didn't intend to start makes an individual elated and glad he completed it. The feeling after the horn sounds and the money in your wallet as you go home to start something else.

Its interesting to view the two different philosophies.

I think my dad is right though; there is a time when an individual has to do something he didn't intend to fix. Otherwise the world of play wouldn't exist as it does today. It would collapse because no one would want to do the "hard work". Simply, we would be in an age far less civilized and less complex then the one we currently exist in. 

By working, we have time to play, and the right to enjoy all the gadgets and gizmos that exist because of our accomplishments or “hard work”.

Angry

Individuals who experience anger, are for the most part upset that some event occurred to themselves. Most of the time this event is out of their control, and is evoked upon by bad news, insults, or the discovery of unforeseen events. All this often leads to irrational behavior called anger.

One example of displaying anger comes very recently to me.  Like finding out that someone put a hole in your wall of the house you are living in. At the time I guess have chosen my roommates a little more wisely knowing something like this would eventually happen.  Thats what happens in college houses that people party at so here's my anger.

IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE COURTESY TO RESPECT OUR HOUSE AND RESPECT OUR PROPERTY THEN STAY THE FUCK OUT!!!

I could of got all angry about failing my lone college class (or something to that extent) and made the hole in the wall myself, but because of someone's stupid ignorant drunken activity causes me to lose my security deposit. F word, S word, thank you kind sir.

See, irrational behavior typically ensues with bold print; the second part I rewrote after some  thought so i wouldn't offend people. Angered individuals typically display: a shouting mentality, a greater tendency to break stuff, and a general pissed off aura that follows the individual around the rest of the day. I wonder if that individual was angry when he made the hole in our wall because I'd like to meet him, and display my anger now.

*** YEARS LATER ADDITION***

On the other side of the spectrum, I do remember one night where i threw up in the upstairs bathroom into the bathroom tub shortly after this event occurred.  Instead of owning up to my fault, I passed the buck and blamed the usual suspects (individuals know to throw up) and listened to the anger displayed throughout the house while they tried to guess.  Looking back its better to let the natural course of action take effect and let things blow over.

People tend to get more angry over things that cost them money then time.

Calm

In a sea of chaos known as this world, there are individuals who travel through space and time unaffected by complex situations. There mind is in perfect order as the complexities of science, math, and social problems (so on and so forth) converge into the fubar of all problems. Yet, they remain unmoved almost relaxed like they already know they're going to find the answer to the problem even though they haven't found it yet.

Most people who aren't calm can not concentrate or critically think through a situation.  To be a calm person one must have the intelligence (in books or the street) to understand a situation, which over time becomes the big picture. Ignorant people could also be calm until they are blind sided by unexpected events, which ruin their picture perfect world into utter chaos.  Thankfully they will not be alone and join their brothers in the deep oceans fighting to stay afloat as the calm captains of the sea navigate their ships to safety.

To be calm,

clear your mind...
use focus....
divide properly...
and choose wisely...