Angry

Individuals who experience anger, are for the most part upset that some event occurred to themselves. Most of the time this event is out of their control, and is evoked upon by bad news, insults, or the discovery of unforeseen events. All this often leads to irrational behavior called anger.

One example of displaying anger comes very recently to me.  Like finding out that someone put a hole in your wall of the house you are living in. At the time I guess have chosen my roommates a little more wisely knowing something like this would eventually happen.  Thats what happens in college houses that people party at so here's my anger.

IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE COURTESY TO RESPECT OUR HOUSE AND RESPECT OUR PROPERTY THEN STAY THE FUCK OUT!!!

I could of got all angry about failing my lone college class (or something to that extent) and made the hole in the wall myself, but because of someone's stupid ignorant drunken activity causes me to lose my security deposit. F word, S word, thank you kind sir.

See, irrational behavior typically ensues with bold print; the second part I rewrote after some  thought so i wouldn't offend people. Angered individuals typically display: a shouting mentality, a greater tendency to break stuff, and a general pissed off aura that follows the individual around the rest of the day. I wonder if that individual was angry when he made the hole in our wall because I'd like to meet him, and display my anger now.

*** YEARS LATER ADDITION***

On the other side of the spectrum, I do remember one night where i threw up in the upstairs bathroom into the bathroom tub shortly after this event occurred.  Instead of owning up to my fault, I passed the buck and blamed the usual suspects (individuals know to throw up) and listened to the anger displayed throughout the house while they tried to guess.  Looking back its better to let the natural course of action take effect and let things blow over.

People tend to get more angry over things that cost them money then time.

Calm

In a sea of chaos known as this world, there are individuals who travel through space and time unaffected by complex situations. There mind is in perfect order as the complexities of science, math, and social problems (so on and so forth) converge into the fubar of all problems. Yet, they remain unmoved almost relaxed like they already know they're going to find the answer to the problem even though they haven't found it yet.

Most people who aren't calm can not concentrate or critically think through a situation.  To be a calm person one must have the intelligence (in books or the street) to understand a situation, which over time becomes the big picture. Ignorant people could also be calm until they are blind sided by unexpected events, which ruin their picture perfect world into utter chaos.  Thankfully they will not be alone and join their brothers in the deep oceans fighting to stay afloat as the calm captains of the sea navigate their ships to safety.

To be calm,

clear your mind...
use focus....
divide properly...
and choose wisely...

Bored

To me boredom has two separate meanings:

• Firstly I believe it is not having a meaningful present timeline in your life.
• And secondly, not having comfort in finding whats truly best for for ones self at the moment.

Anyone can lose their way from time to time, but it's not an excuse to stay down. To be bored requires an individual to be put in a situation where no possible outcome could benefit an individual greater then doing nothing.

To do nothing, an individual could by chance find more enjoyment in drinking which means to do more then nothing, and thus a dependency on alcohol evolves from the lack of activity available to an individual (lack of choices). It doesn't matter how great or small an activity is but human beings would rather accept a lower stature of life then being bored in a higher level of life.

An individual who is truly bored must be unsatisfied with their current situation and is striving to find a new or better way to improve upon the moment. If an individual is bored, then anything is possible, its mind blowing to think that a complete blank thought otherwise known as the emotion of boredom evolves to create something great. Boredom I believe is a main component in finding nirvana because we are always searching for a state of mind where we are the most satisfied about our thoughts.

To summarize: being bored in nirvana means being unsatisfied with your current state and in search for a fulfilling state. Searching is a beginning.

A Starting Point

Nirvana defined by dictionary.com is:

• 1a. Buddhism The ineffable ultimate in which one has attained disinterested wisdom and compassion.
• 1b. Hinduism Emancipation from ignorance and the extinction of all attachment.
• 2. An ideal condition of rest, harmony, stability, or joy.

I believe that nirvana must mean the ultimate experience someone can achieve throughout their lives. An experience that sums up the core of human emotions into a bread basket and explodes upon an individual; where they are at a greater understanding and realization of the meaning of life. But the question I pose is how to achieve nirvana, is an individual to always walk the right path never to fully understand the complexity behind the less meaningful way of life? Does the individual who experiences the most, who understands the world deserve to achieve nirvana if they preformed the less moral judgement but have learned from it? Or does the individual who had to flush his head down the toilet to realize they were wrong deserve nirvana because they experienced feelings no other individual else should?
To sum up the top paragraph, there are three types of individuals seeking to find nirvana:

1. Individuals With high morals
2. Individuals in the middle ground
3. Individuals with low or no morals 

***I guess sub categories for all of these could exist like a bell curve, with the majority of the*** ***population somewhere between individuals in the middle ground.***

 

How these individuals receive these morals becomes by pure chance, a luck of the draw, like picking names out of a hat to form teams. So it would really would be wrong if we excluded any group from seeking nirvana, because kids don't ask to be molded into to the lower bracket.

But how does one achieve nirvana, is nirvana a word, and a word alone. Or did someone experience it, and can that experience can be duplicated, and achieved by other individuals. To my knowledge, I have yet to find or speak to an individual who has truly found nirvana. I guess to sum the ultimate experience of nirvana then, I must define the ultimate experience individuals go through out their lives. Hate, love, sad, guilt, beauty, lonely, happy, confidence, self-worth, etc. The list can go on for a while. Hopefully Once you can fully understand these words, then maybe finding nirvana might be possible.

My roommate Dan brought up a few great points about nirvana that I would like to discuses. Dan was asking a question about the achievement of nirvana:

• Does everyone achieve nirvana in some way shape or form? Because doesn't everyone have at the very least , that one defining moment in their lives that shows them that life is a little more than what they are seeing day to day?

Or

• Is nirvana a single place or thing that only certain people will ever see that shows them how things really are?

Lets examine the first statement: A defining moment of achievement that opens the eyes of the beholder to reveal a aspect of life unseen by an individual. I see this set of individuals on the right path to achieve nirvana, although I have no idea if what they were reaching for would ultimately lead them to find nirvana. Once I hit parenthood maybe I will understand the first statement more.

My roommates second statement I defiantly agree with, that nirvana would have to be a defined place, or state of being that shows individuals how things really are. However, a defining moment could begin to open the eyes of an individual if they were seeking or now are seeking a enlightened path. In order to discover this enlightened path, one must experience a vast majority of what the world has to offer and also understand it. This defining moment can help an individual experience and understand more about the world.

I also like Dan's comment about his version of nirvana.

• I feel like if I hit nirvana, I wont even be thinking of thinking. Not to be thinking of nirvana, the universe, or life.

To not think, some would call it not existing but in Buddhism and Hinduism they believe we must break the circle of life, for all that exists in the world will be reincarnated. A greater question that I'll have to take up tomorrow would have to be:

• If we understand everything that exists, then we can begin to realize that existing is not everything. Can we experience death in life or non-existence?

For now I believe nirvana becomes the infinite understanding of life, along with with an high mental state that allows us to experience the ultimate experience. To find a corner in a circle. Thank you Dan for your input.

What a question to ask... To not exist or exist.. To answer questions that are unanswerable, or to know the wrong and find truth in it. Existing, from my current standpoint is everything, and to not exist becomes impossible in our current existence. Can we divide a thought in half just like a physical things that exist in the world?

To answer honestly, I don't know, a thing that is blue, everyone knows. But if I said my thought was bl and left the other portion of my thought over here ue, you would have no clue what bl, or ue would mean.  But we do also have objects that came together through a group of individuals. Complex electronics like the computer have a motherboard, nic card,  video card, input components, ectera that make this idea whole.  Is it too farfetched to think the color blue came about in some sort of similar way?

To conclude on tonight's quest for nirvana, I must understand the basic human emotions that drive individuals to achieve goals. One such goal humans strive for is nirvana, and the emotions that evolve to reach nirvana must be documented (so in my next posts I will be questioning the basic human emotions people experience in achieving nirvana)